Hey Myrrh- I'm a daily lurker on your thread, and in the last few days I've begun thinking I should drop you a line to say hi. Esp. after reading your last post, and one from a few days ago, I can't remember exactly when it was. I just want you to know how great I think you're doing and how much I appreciate that you just lay it all out there. You are totally honest and I appreciate that so much. So many times when I read your posts I think , wow, she just totally described something about myself that I can barely even admit to myself, and she's out there posting it to the world. That's so awesome and brave of you. I really admire that. So, no advice to give right now, just wanted you to know I learn a lot about myself from reading your thread. Often times I think we're leading parellel lives!!