It's ok if you are numb, don't try to dig too hard. You have had a LOT of major life changes lately, both good and terrible, and you are probably overloaded emotionally. The mind has some sophisticated defense mechanisms to protect itself when things become too intense.

Don't force yourself to feel positive or negative things towards your WAW, if you are feeling nothing, it's okay. When your mind has decided you are less overwhelmed the emotions will flow again. Right now I wish I could borrow a little numbness, lol. I am doing poorly with detachment and the emotions are up and down by the hour.

M 10yrs T 13yrs
BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW
BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off
Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce
April '17-Letting go
2018 D busted
DD8, DS6, DS3