Here's the link to my old thread She's thinking of leaving again 4 Thanks Sotto. I'm reading the Happiness Advantage at the moment. It has certainly brought a smile to my face. All the advice I've received on the forum has certainly strenghtened my resolve to do things from now on my own terms and not waste energy worrying about what might be. The only thing I can do is to deal with what happens now, to be confident that I can cope with whatever happens and to be grateful for each day. My life has changed so much in these seven months, so who knows what will happen in the future? I can't sit waiting for W, chances are she won't be back. I can't envisage a future where we regain the friendship we once had, not with the OM next to her. So I'm planning a couple of ideas for the holidays with S and enjoying my daily working life. I've learnt that there will be moments where contact with W upsets me, but I'm limiting them as much as possible and forgiving myself quickly. I know there'll be tricky moments with W but I'll deal with them and move on. Choosing to be happy, meditating and having a wonderful R with my S. Always remembering that tomorrow is another day, life is full of opportunities and I won't let W stop me living in the now. I've got a race on Saturday, then dinner with friends. I'm going to take out a summer membership to take up golf again as I stopped years ago. I might join a sports club for the summer as they have a nice outdoor pool and it can get very hot here. I want to keep busy but also I'm getting comfortable with quiet times where I can enjoy by myself too.