Yes, summed up well. I'm hanging on to a better me. A better me that can eventually get a D with no emotions, no strings attached. I don't want the M.
A want to be a person that was able to take stock of their life and let the detachment process play itself out.
The emotions are pulling me down, but I need to make sure that they don't influence my actions. That's my sole purpose here. I had a real bad night. There's going to be more. I'm gonna give up, fall down and pick myself up.
Not sure if it's masochistic but am I pushing myself too far?
Should I just not put the house on my name and D, then detach more.
Ill be honest DDJ, none of that make sense to me whatsoever. Your actions and your wants don't line up. Its sounds like you are hoping to get a different result from doing the same thing over and over again.
Me31 W31 M11yrs S6yrs 23Mar16-BD 9Apr16-W admitted EA w boss. 27Jun16-W Changed job and promised NC w OM. 14Jul16-Continued contact w OM.Start of Separation. 24May17-Divorced.
