Yes, summed up well. I'm hanging on to a better me. A better me that can eventually get a D with no emotions, no strings attached. I don't want the M.
A want to be a person that was able to take stock of their life and let the detachment process play itself out.
The emotions are pulling me down, but I need to make sure that they don't influence my actions. That's my sole purpose here. I had a real bad night. There's going to be more. I'm gonna give up, fall down and pick myself up.
Not sure if it's masochistic but am I pushing myself too far?
Should I just not put the house on my name and D, then detach more.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
