Weird Reaction

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So last night she went to a baseball game with some friends. (Actually some people from the political campaign she is a part of). That was her event that she could not tell me about yesterday. I did not ask her where she was going she decided to divulge this information when she got home. I did not engage as much as I normally do. I was playing on my phone. I did tell her a little about my day (a dog followed me home) which in hindsight I should not have said.

I need to stop looking through her phone. It is an addiction of mine. I saw her selfies (really?! how old are we?!) and group pics. She is with some men I do not know.

In my mind I thought she was for sure with the man I believe she is having the EA with.

Oh, forgot to mention. I have to stop this habit I have of waiting at the garage door when she gets home. I greet her and help her with anything she is holding. I used to follow her around like a puppy after she got home in hopes my niceness would lead to something.

I remember one time I did not greet her at the door (I fell asleep) and she was keen to complain about it.

I know I am a whupped H and I need to cut her off. It will not be as easy as I first thought. I see I was very dependent on WW for my emotional needs. Couple that with the fact we did everything together. I mean like everything.Now that is gone and I keep hopping on and off the crazy train.