Up to the antics again. Last night we both had stuff going on and got home around 11:15PM or so, it was a quiet encounter, she kept boasting about her “new friend Jan” and how awesome of a time they had. Not sure why she felt she needed to all the sudden start sharing her life with me, but okay… great. I noticed she didn’t have the ring on still, didn’t say anything about it.
This morning I noticed again and asked if she was no longer wearing her ring, and she said, ‘not right now, I took it off when you went all crazy and yelled at me on the phone.’… this might be how she remembers it, or she might just be trying to antagonize, but there was no yelling. She was referring to the conversation on Friday when she found out I withdrew all my direct deposit money into cash. She escalated and I told her “I just took it out so I could have one month’s bills, in cash, in case you decide to retain an attorney… have to have money to pay the bills, that’s all I’m doing.” She went on to say how “sneaky” it is, and she thinks I’m up to something like I’m going to leave the M and this is only pushing her ‘further away’ from her. That’s when I told her I’m not leaving, and she’s the one making the decision to leave, I’m just protecting myself for when she does….”
Somehow, my calm, direct, approach to this conversation has her this morning, fuming about how I “went crazy” and “disrespected her by yelling and calling names” over the phone call on Friday… I hope this is her just ‘up to antics’ and trying to start something. Because this has, yet, been ANOTHER problem of our past. Her ‘way to remember’ things are so far from the truth, it’s like her memory exists in some other realm of fictional existence… there’s probably some kind of psycho-analysis for this kind of behavior – remembering things falsely to fit your current need/situation….
Anyways, I’m not going to let it get to me, she’s “not wearing the ring, now, but she’s going to wear it this weekend,” she told me. (We’ll be spending the weekend apart again, as she’ll be going out of town with family & friends (annual trip), and I’m not invited this year. So, I’ve planned a trip of my own… haven’t told her this, and I’ve already arranged for care of the animals, but I'm sure she'll flip out upon finding out. Actually, I’m excited that for the first time in 5 years (the first two years were fun), I’m doing something different on this (hopefully) beautiful Memorial Day weekend!
