I wrote a long post and then changed my mind. I am processing so many painful thoughts and memories right now, and am beating myself up about the mistakes I made during the M.

I saw the T today and she says I have to remember that regardless what mistakes I made, I was always willing to work on them, see counselors, ask H what he wanted and needed, etc. He wasn't willing to do the work or didn't believe it was possible.

I'll be going to bed shortly before the tears start again, have much work to do from home tomorrow.

M 16 yrs, WH62, P54
3 adult blended kids
EA 11/13, BD1 6/14
PA fall 14, BD2 2/15
Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15
Separated 4/16
WH moved OW in 5/16
Divorced 6/15/17