WAS or what (6)

[roist]

Hit a low tonight.

Not a down low, but a big dip in motivation. Really asked myself why continue. But my alternatives don't look any better.

Snooping revealed that my W cannot envisage only seeing her kids every two weeks and it is impossible to talk to me. I think she hates the situation as much as me, but is making no obvious effort to change things one way or another. So status quo is the reluctant choice.

Maybe I should test which she would choose between separating and trying.
Which is the least envisaging (not seeing kids all the time or being with me)?

Michele says we should raise the alert to maximum a year before calling it quits. I am reluctant to guess how much longer I will stay like this but another year seems a bit too long. But I think Michele meant the warning to be issued by the WAS and not the LBS.


Maybe I am impossible to talk to. Though she has never sat me down to talk. I will reflect on this, but the expression leading a horse to water springs to mind.

A few hours ago I reread some marriage advice/articles and reminded myself of why I am standing toe to toe against such a battle. My reasons are good. My objective eye sees reasons to hope.

Mowgli. I guess the rock is only human after all!

Thanks for letting me share.