Thank you for the hugs! at least you have a chance, going to MC etc. I hope you two figure out the sex thing - it doesn't need to be as complicated as we sometimes make it. Also sometimes depends on WHY they/he/we want sex...to feel loved, to really connect ??? Having a hard time with any GAL activities that involve other people right now...just want to be out here on our land and don't want to talk to anyone most of the time. I know I will come out of this phase. We live in a small town and really I don't want to talk about it with anyone unless it will be helpful, and mostly, it isn't. I am going to plant a garden. I am going to ride my motorcycle and start to look for another job. Is that enough??? And write a lot. I have materials from an online biz class I took that I also need to get back into as I want to start my own biz. Challenge is to make a plan and schedule priorities and stick to the plan. and not get lost in feeling sad. Thank you so much - gotta go to my part time job now. Will check in later. thanks for all your support.