Thank you Job. I must admit that I didn't follow your advice this time as I couldn't picture another session with that therapist and it ended up to be a first thing I agreed on with my h after a long time 😊. The therapist apologised to us for the last session and wants us back to discuss but we agreed we try someone else. I'm quite happy as I was worried that my h will just want to stop. But he said he's afraid we cannot relate to each other w/o third person for the moment. Whatever that means... He also said "what worries me is your inability to deal with me without either ignoring me completely or attacking me violently". Which is absolutely not the case, we spent long weekend as a family 3 weeks ago and that went well (though he did keep his distance half of the time). The day after HE attacked me because he didn't understand why "suddenly" I'm so nice. He is very angry since I am in a good mood & visibly happy. I'm not sure why such change in his behaviour. In any case, I will not reply to that part of his e-mail. I don't have the need to justify myself anymore.
He will come home this weekend to be with the kids for 5 days while I'm going away. How I wish he would realise that it's HOME for him too. But for that he would have to get out of the state in which he is. & I don't see that coming any time soon... Well, one can always hope (but don't worry: 0 expectations😊).