Zues, great and valid points, and very helpful to think about right now.

I have to be brief because I'm so drugged I have to go lie down. I had a very long conversation with H this morning. Brief conclusion is - he knows he did some crappy things, he never considered *not* doing them even though he knew they would hurt me, he lied because he didn't want to hurt me and he still loves me. I have my thoughts about all of this but I'll come back to them later.

We're going to talk more, it was actually a good conversation, although I cried at times.

M 16 yrs, WH62, P54
3 adult blended kids
EA 11/13, BD1 6/14
PA fall 14, BD2 2/15
Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15
Separated 4/16
WH moved OW in 5/16
Divorced 6/15/17