continued detachment, anxiety, and joys of limbo

[ciluzen]

I understand the wanting to let the sadness roll over you. Its not depression brought on by chemical imbalance. Its "situational depression" brought on by the circumstances of being left and rejected. Be sad. Its ok to. It will ease up at some point, when you're ready. For now, let those waves roll over you. And past.

I, too, have trouble making friends, pushing past the "she's a nice person" impression. I don't always like what other women like, and sometimes have interests that are out of the norm for my meetup groups. I wish I could go hiking with you; I backpacked all over the Sierras and most of SoCal, some of WA and ID. I, too, tend to talk plants, animals and rock formations and watch people's eyes glaze over.

You'll meet people. They will help. Just keep an open mind...friends appear in unlikely places. You'll be happy again someday. Just use your time to think about life and what you like about it.