Well, I know that to some of you going without contact for half a day would not be weird, but at this point and for me, it is.
Especially when I had told him I might get in touch with him to have him take care of our S - my normal thing to do would be to call him anyway, just because I knew he would be available, to confirm with him that I didn't need him. I didn't do that today. I haven't even attempted to call him. And I'm okay.
If I could actually do this for one day, it might be the start of a 180 for me. I was reading a book last night called Something More: Excavating Your Authentic Self, and it talked about how making life changes is merely a series of tiny choices, consciously made each day.
Well, here's my conscious choice for today. Just for today, I am not going to attempt to contact my H. We both deserve a breather, and maybe it will give us both some clarity. Maybe I will be able to continue it into tomorrow... Who knows, Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
