My anxiety came back a little this morning on the way to work and now during a meeting. I know exactly where it comes from though - i was thinking about her. I was thinking how my life would be without the person that I pledged my entire being to.
It makes me sad. But i know where it comes from and I know how to walk away from that place. Focus on me, be in the moment. Be myself with myself. I do not need a WW to make me whole.
I've decided to not take the meds that the doctor gave me. If i am going to beat this then i need to be of a sober mind. I prayed for a good nights rest before i went to sleep. I awoke at 5am, mind racing, tummy grumbling from hunger. I knew that a hungry tummy would not allow me to sleep. I went to the kitchen, ate an apple quickly. Then lay in bed and focused on my breathing whilst humming a song in my head - no space for WW. I quickly feel asleep. As I was getting done for work, I closed my eyes and thanked God for the sleep, I cried so happy I was for the blessing of sleep.
Appreciate the little things hey.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
