A Glass of Myrrlo

[Lyrael]

Thanks, Pattie.
I was driving back to the house from my new apartment after just kind of sitting in there trying to absorb it as my new place, and I realized I am starting to mourn the loss of this relationship - I am pretty sure that grieving is the first step to letting go, and I don't think I can stop it! He and I have had a little bit of R talk, wherein he told me that he was insulted that I would think he was dating so soon - that he could just say "get out" and then replace me right away with someone else...he is convinced I have a man in Seattle...I guess it is a territorial thing that even though he doesn't want me right now, he doesn't want anyone else to have me either.

Giving up dreams is hard...when I think about what I would like to be doing on this Sunday evening...this was family night, and our S is with a sitter - just a week ago we had talked about going to the movies if we could get him a sitter, and now I know that if I was going to go, it would have to be by myself. I would just rather be doing quiet family things than working on moving on bravely by myself.
AUGH!
Myrrh