Greetings, Flowboy - actually, I am not quite in the new place yet. One more excruciating session of H helping me move (maybe with his friend - yippee) and I will be ready to move in, although since Ihaven't gotten a phone hooked up there yet it may still be one more day.
I am feeling very detached today. I just feel very "been here, done this." Everyone fears pain...that's why I am afraid of the D papers and of what it will feel like for me when H starts dating again. Like I said, pretty much the only thing I am doing in support of my marriage at this point is not actively filing for divorce. I can't keep my heart deeply engaged with my H, knowing that it could be months or never before he reconsiders.
He seems very sure of his course, and I believe it is only business that keeps him from moving ahead with the paperwork. Anyway - I am on my way out to the new place for some more moving fun! By myself, for now. Wish me luck at being calm and cool tonight... Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
