continued detachment, anxiety, and joys of limbo

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Phoebe, it makes me sad to hear that you are going through a rough stretch these past 2 days. You have been doing so much to help your healing process and I know much of the things that you were doing were outside of your comfort zone.

My heart breaks a little as I hear of the sadness you are experiencing, because I know that you are so much more than the depressing thoughts and views you are experiencing.

Will you try something for me? It is something that I have been studying, learning about and really working on with my d17.

Positive self talk.

Our brains are like computers. If you enter bad programming, then things don't work right or behave in a manner not desired.
If you enter good programming, then things work well and behave in a manner that is desired.

When you are posting positive things and statements you appear to be doing well.
Then there are days where your posts are focused on the not so good things and you are struggling.

What I want to challenge you to do, is post positive things when you are feeling down or sad. Take it a step further and speak positive things to yourself as well. Seek out positive reading, videos, etc.

Lets change that sad/negative programing in your mind to positive,happy programming. Because that is truly who you are under the pain. Lets get it out into the open and let it roam free.

I want to see you break through some barriers and gain some momentum.
I know this may seem like a tall order, and it is coming from someone that just a few weeks ago, could not hold it together, but I have found some momentum in this approach, and I think it may benefit you at this time.

Lets get you to a point that you will feel strong for any future challenges that you will face. Lets stay in the moment to create that strength. Lets get Phoebe to a place where sleep is the norm, shaking is temporary, a smile is the medicine for sadness, and fear of what the future holds is not an issue.

Will you try this?
View Shawn Achors tedtalk on happiness
View Matthieu Ricard tedtalk on the habits of happiness.

These contain messages that can help you with my challenge.

(((Phoebe)))

I am here for you, I believe in you and I know you are so much more than the fearful future images that run through your mind.