have i been making mistakes too long part 7

[tkdmme]

Jb,

Thank you so much for the encouraging words. It's going to be hard for sure but it's something that has to be done. I always enjoyed a beer or two while mowing the grass and I was a social drinker as well. However, in the wake of the w leaving, I have become a full blown drunk!Thank God that haven't hurt myself or anyone else during the past 18 months or so.

The soon to be ex has always drank heavily. Her father died of from liver damage at 44 years old. It was a huge problem in our m. When BD happened, I completely stopped drinking and stared going to AA. This only lasted about 3 months and when I started again, it was like I couldn't get enough. I couldn't sleep without it. I sleep ok now and don't need it. However I've started playing piano in the night clubs again and I think that is a mistake as well.

I have 3 more piano jobs booked but after that I'm going to hang it up for a while. Maybe for good. It really stinks because I love making music but it is a trigger for me.

Anyway, thanks for the reply and encouragement.

I'm not drinking tonight. It's the first night in a few weeks that I've not had a drink. Sounds lame but you gotta start somewhere right?