A Glass of Myrrlo

[Lyrael]

A recap for Nitaf:
Me 23, H 30, S 20 months
Together 3 years, married only 1 year and a few months.
I had serious problems with clinical depression and was in and out hospitals.
5 monthsafter we were married, he started an affair with OW (19) and moved out last Sept right after I got out of the hospital for the last time. The affair ended when H suggested that she move back to her parent's home 3 hours. Things became steadily more positive, but I didn't start DBing until January, and he moved back home February 15 (too soon). I fell back into more of the same, the fighting began again, and H moved back into his shop last Friday. I got an apt this Monday (after deciding I needed to get some physical distance from things) and I get my keys today. So, he has left both times, but never done anything permanent about it.

As far as I know, he is filing for divorce sometime this month, but has not made any phone calls or appts yet that he has told me about. Lots of positives this week, but I am not changing my plan or goals at this point - if we try this again, it will be with counseling and lots of advance planning, not spur-of-the-moment like it was in February.

So I don't know - I do expect him to file fairly soon, but I have all these positives that are happening, and if nothing else, they boost my PMA.

I love my H and he and I are best friends, so I hope if nothing else I will be able to salvage that from this mess.

Is that helpful?
Myrrh