I am sitting at my desk at work obsessing again. I was able to let it go this morning but my workload is low so I cannot concentrate on anything else. My WW has spent 5 days away from home on the road "for work" My 21st wedding anniversary is tomorrow. We are trying to figure out staying in the same house together again after about a month, we have been swithcing so my S13 can stay at home. I sent her an email with questions and concerns about us staying in the same house, she said she would call last night but as expected she never did. She emailed back and said she was staying in a different town and said that we have some things to discuss obviously. I believe she is activly engaging in an A. I approached her about that before she left on Business but she denied accordingly due to my approach. I am working on GAL but I cannot sleep, so exercise has diminished. I can only pretend that I am doing that. I have done a ton of reading on detaching, and am only about 50% doing it. She still engages me but not too much really.
Just ranting about my feelings today, no one else wants to hear about it. This is the hardest thing that I have had to endure, I know it will get better but hanging in the fringes a MR is just about the worse thing a person can go through.
Hope other people are having a better Monday!


M 21 years
XW 43yo, me 41 yo
S13
BD March 2016 - she asked me to patient...
End of June - I started the D process.
D final 2/23/17
"He who forgets will be destined to remember"
Eddie Vedder