I am sure someone else has dealt with being good for months and them getting hit like a truck.

This camping trip really set me back it feels. I haven't been this emotional or cried this much since early on. It's frustrating and it really makes me feel like I have made zero progress

In the biggest way all I want is to actually talk to MIL about it all. She always felt like the one who listened best. Yet I know I can't. It leaves me with the forum and myself.

I do have to see W today to exchange the boys. And it's never fun because s3 doesn't like going with her. Then W gets defensive and thinks we need to change the visitation. When in reality S3 just wants a family again.

I don't know why I stopped posting here. I felt good and like I was pretty much moved on. Man I was wrong. Haha.

The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.