Well, everyone...I am back into the DB groove, I guess. H came over again tonight, and again we got no packing done. Nothing crazy, just sitting on the couch together, snuggling. Enjoying watching our S bounce off the walls until he went to bed. We watched TV together and just hung out - he was really tired, but really enjoying the head and neck rub I was giving him.
At around 11, he got up from the couch and I gave him a kiss on the cheek and told him I needed to go to bed. He gave me a huge hug, and said "I love you." I told him I pick up my keys for my apartment tomorrow...he offered earlier in the evening to help me move if I need him to over the weekend. I don't know what's behind that - I think he just is uncomfortable on the crap bed at the shop, and wanting to sleep on his own bed. It's rare for him to offer to do things over the weekend. Especially in the morning - I didn't call him "the owl" in my last thread for nothing.
It was a major victory for me that I let him go without any silly melodrama, and I was the one who (graciously, kindly) initiated him leaving. There are some positives here, I feel, but I am moving ahead with my original plan...I will start moving in tomorrow. I am interested to see if he will initiate any contact or attempt to see me or contact me after I move. Maybe he won't - maybe he will want to just let go, but I don't know.
I do enjoy the loving, sweet H, and I am sure he appreciates the loving, sweet me. Now if I could only figure out wy we can't seem to be this way when we live together...hmm. Oh well, things are okay, and I will be okay no matter what happens here. Hugs to all, Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
