My third post - please be nice

[collin]

Thanks Pink. Today is rough. I feel like I'm on the verge of crashing. Any given second the tears could start. I just had to go do a site visit for my job and it was all I could do not to cry there. It was a hour and a half drive there and back and all I wanted to do was call her and grovel and beg for her not to leave.

I stopped by the house on my way back to let out a cry. But now I've got to go submit for a permit at the inspections department where we met and she worked. I may or may not make it to my office today. I don't know how beneficial my presence will be today. I'm so tired of sitting at work crying. I just want the pain to go away. It hurts so bad.