Never felt so down in a long time. Mind has been straying to her, to him and her, past events both good and bad. Feel really lonely without her especially as the days get better and all I see are families and couples everywhere. Fighting the temptation to reach out to her. I won't and can't but it is really hard at the moment. Nothing seems to keep me interested at the moment. I'm fighting a mixture of anger, frustration, sadness and jealousy. I'll get through it but it is tough. Just venting.
