A Glass of Myrrlo

[Lyrael]

Well, my pma is at a decent level today. I still haven't heard anything from H about lawyers. I am thinking that he will start working on that after I get moved and settled - maybe he is not wanting to hit me with too much all at once. I appreciate that, I guess.

I can't allow myself to think that the delay is anything other than kindness to me, or being busy with other things. I guess it doesn't matter why the delay.

I walked out into the sunshine today and thought, "I can't wait to get settled into my apartment." I just want to get my new life started, and the H can fit in wherever he decides to. I have this vision of my little living room on a summer night, with a lamp on, and some music playing, and the iwndow open a few inches to catch the breeze. And maybe S is there playing, or maybe he is at his dads, and I am curled up on the couch, reading and thoroughly enjoying myself.

I will be fine - I am really strong, and light years ahead of where I was six months ago. I will get through this.

Do you hear me world? I am gonna get through this!