Okay, well - I can't ever let closeness like last night happen again, at least not for a long time - it really messes me up the next day. I feel like I am on a roller coaster. I remember a time in my life when I was not with anybody, and I was happy!!! I was content to dream about someday, and to just live each day for myself until then. I want that back soooooooo bad. I don't want to love or want my H anymore. I want to be the rejector, instead of the reject.
I DON"T WANT SOMEONE WHO DOESN"T WANT ME! MY HUSBAND DOESN'T WANT ME!!!! WHY CAN I NOT GET THAT THROUGH MY STUPID HEAD? HE WANTS A DIVORCE. HE WANTS ME OUT OF HIS LIFE, AND I NEED TO QUIT BEING PATHETIC AND MOVE ON!!!! I feel like such a psycho. Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
