A Glass of Myrrlo

[Lyrael]

PMA is in the toilet right now. I have been looking at those "recovering after divorce" websites, and one of them mentioned that only 10% of couples who separate actually reconcile.
A couple of them mentioned that three to six months of little or no contact is best when it comes to trying to heal from the pain of a divorce. That would make a good goal time for reassessment of my life around the little guy's second birthday party in July. That's about four months. If I can keep the no contact thing going after this Friday, maybe I will be able to quit hoping that my H will want me back or that this divorce won't happen.

Hope hurts!!! So much. Honestly, I feel like I am bleeding from the inside right now. I wish I had the money for a phone coaching session, but I just don't right now.

I don't know how some of you that have been at this for sixteen or eighteen months keep at it. I just want so bad right now to not care, but I am still in this hurting and beaten stage. I want to hope and all that, but I am afraid of the blow that will come as the D papers are served and then become final.
AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!
This is the voice of frustration, signing off.
Myrrh