A Glass of Myrrlo

[TripleJ]

Well, in true Myrrh form, I am obsessing a bit about last night. Did I screw up by being warm, affectionate, and close with my husband? Am I just opening myself to some sort of empty affair? Is he using me, or does he love me and is just really confused about all of this? Bottom line is, I don't see last night as a babystep or any sort of step at all.
So, stop obsessing about it. Myrrh, remember, you need to concentrate on you. I am very happy that things went well for you last night in the affection department. But take it slow. And no, I don't think you screwed up, it let you know that he still cares for you and you him. I don't think there is anything wrong with that.

In fact, I am just extremely confused. I am doing a 180 in telling him that I am trying to be his friend instead of anything else, and actually following through with this apartment thing - really leaving for the first time - is a big 180 as well.
just keep focusing on those goals that you listed the other day. 180s are good, as long as they are working.

I need to feel some pursuit here - I don't think he came over with any intention of what happened last night happening, but maybe he really is just playing games with me. AUGH!
Lets slow down here Myrrh. We all want and need to feel the pursuit. If you don't receive it, don't give up. I can only think of a few people here on the BB who are actually being pursued, but very few. But what happened last night was nice, just I wouldn't expect it every time, IMHO

Anyway, the original plan was for him to help me tonight, but i feel like I need some space to think. I don't want to call him today, and I don't really need to. I can call him tomorrow to make sure he made the call for power in my new apt. Not calling him all the time will be a big 180 for me.
Then don't make that call. I can see that you will be the one not to give you space, not dustin. So, if you don't want to call him, then don't, unless it is vitally important.

I am trying not to focus on him right now - last night felt really good to me - snuggling and being close - and if that's the last memory I have of him, then so be it.
Trust me Myrrh, it won't be the last. But hang onto it for as long as you can.

I just know that I don't want to be in a relationship with no commitment forever. I guess I don't have to worry about that yet, though, do I?
Does anyone?

Myrrh, I don't know if I helped you here, but I want to say that you are being very strong. You have goals and you know what you need to do to be a better you.

Now go do it!

Hugs back at ya!

Triple J