More detachment, less anxiety and the continued joy of limbo

[Phoebe]

SadHub, thank you. You're right. I am wounded, and for the very reasons you mentioned. I joke about it, about hanging on the Island of Misfit Toys and such, to protect that wound, but it's real and you and I both know how much it hurts. I did trust him to love and accept me. And he did, until he didn't.

Well, damn it. Cue the tsunami.

Had to take a sobbing hyperventilation break there... There's no stopping it and no point in trying to do so anyway. Feeling it and letting it go is the only way. It's been over a week since the last one. Should have known it was coming the way I've felt the last couple days.

At first it happened every single day, and for a lot longer. Now it's more like once a week, so I guess it's getting easier.