blueboy, I know exactly how you feel, I feel the same way. My WW left for 5 days, she is still gone. When she left she gave big hugs and kisses and said she would call when she got there. I never heard from her until 9 the next day...because I texted her. It is that kind of action from me that lets her know she still has me by the balls. I am 40 also, looking to rebuild and have now idea what I am doing day to day. The difference is my WW doesn't know what she wants,she says one thing and does another. I told her today that I didn't want to live in the fringes anymore, gave her a list of questions and concerns about living in the same house. She said that she would call to discuss on her drive home tonight, I have no expectations for that...but still hope. I almost wish she would have just told me that she was leaving me for another, I would be able to start healing...but right now just stuck in neutral...on a hill..headed down the hill backwards.
M 21 years XW 43yo, me 41 yo S13 BD March 2016 - she asked me to patient... End of June - I started the D process. D final 2/23/17 "He who forgets will be destined to remember" Eddie Vedder
