You're fine, LandC. Really. You're H sounds eerily similar to mine. In healthcare, right? Wouldn't be that profession with the highest suicide rate would it? Sorry, I have a darkside and a sick sense of humor...and my husband belongs to that high stress job.
He also wanted to just sit and listen to music or watch mind numbing tv shows (usually food network or shows on antiques) just as meditation. And then I would talk his ear off or ask him a million questions.
I get that you want to write a letter or make your feelings known, but now is not the time. You're an emotional wreck (sorry, but you are right now) and have "trauma brain". He just made a decision and is not willing or able to hear you. He expects that letter or R talk. He has prepared for it and he is ahead of the game as far as detaching. If he is anything like my H, he feels that he tried in the marriage and it didn't work. So now he has probably convinced himself that he's doing you a favor by setting you free. Crazy, right?
Focus on you, smile and be pleasant, vague, serene (so hard to do) and pull your 180's. A time will come when you can probe around his wounds with a bit of R talk. But not right now. Make him miss you and wonder why you seem different. This will take awhile. Be patient, lie low. Don't be the nervous bird that becomes a target by flying out of the bush when flushed. Wait for him to look for you. His sweetness so close to bomb drop says he has feelings for you still, but is protecting both of you from whatever blackness he feels the need to stuff. Be patient.
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
