More detachment, less anxiety and the continued joy of limbo

[Phoebe]

Hi Vanilla, Sotto, and SadHub (so glad to hear from you again!).

Today is better, though I still have that off/down feeling going on. SadHub, I can relate to the odd emotions, as I've not been quite able to put a name on the way I've been feeling over the last few days, either. It's weird, like I'm moving on, and yet not, feeling happy sometimes, and yet there is this feeling of being anchored to deeper sadness. Mostly I feel like I'm running away from dealing with whatever is going on by working my tail off to the point of exhaustion.

So... I still have 7 chicks left this morning, but another one has a problem now, too. Coccidia infection is the most likely issue, and I started treating them yesterday morning before anyone even looked off. I was just suspicious, as last year's chicks needed treatment, too. Glad I already had the meds in the house, but not in time to save that first chick. I was almost afraid to look in their box this morning, for fear of a complete die off. I hope I don't lose the next little one.

I need to work on all of my broken equipment - find a new engine for the push mower, new deck bearings for the riding mower (H broke it last fall, so I am totally out of the mowing game now), and a new pin for the brush-hog. I feel like the repairman needs to come and visit! Oh wait... that's me.

Today, given that I have only broken equipment, I am making myself take a day off, with the exception of searching for parts for the above issues.

I have my MeetUp to go to, the tree-focused nature walk and maybe a hike afterward.

I hope that everyone has a good day.