Last night was unexpected.

I was having a couple of quick GAL drinks with a crowd of people, and the place where we had gone, well, my H's best pal was the head waiter there.

I didn't know, it was totally unexpected.

Anyway, the best pal came over to say hallo (and then goodbye at the end of the night too), and gave me a really big hug. We had a quick chat. I didn't mention H at all, just talked a bit about how busy I was with work and my own life (and I was obviously out with a big group of people, none of which he would have met or known). He to.d me I looked amazing.

Today is the belated birthday party my H is having for his own birthday (back in January). It's my birthday next week.

I'm feeling really drained today, and have got a cold. It's just constant effort, this whole thing. And there is no way out but forwards.


Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017