Out of In house S- Start of two homes (10)

[vise82]

Hey,

Met a guy from work while I was out. He has been off for some time with health issues and he was asking how I was and I told him about the separation. He its the first person I have told from my work. I asked him not to say anything but you know how that works.

I am off work now for two weeks to get my house ready and moved. I am sure by the time I get back most people will know.

So W and I had the sitter look after the kids while we both separately worked on our new houses. She had her parents and girl friend over to help her paint. She is going way over board with multi color stripped and large die cut decals for the kids rooms.

I am just with my self trying to get things ready neat and
clean.
I was looking for the paint rollers and W lies to me about only taking one of them, Then she calls me 15 min after she left, she is at the paint store she can buy one for me and I can pick it up at her house. I declined and said I know we had two of them I will find it.

She was really trying to get me to go to her new house.

Things are going good at the new place and it feels good. Was sad for a bit thinking how can she leave me like this.

She is out tonight to an event that we went to last year, Had an amazing time and after it was the last time we ML. I have been thinking about that. It seems like a milestone of time to move forward, its been a year. I have put in the time, she has not changed her mind.

I had the kids with me and she was getting ready to go. She was going with family, her parents and cousins tonight. I tried to keep the kids out until she left, I get home with them and she is still home.

So I get the kids snacks and get out of there as fast as I could. She was all dressed up looking amazing all for not me.

Its anger I feel now, I have the kids and she is out. And now I get to see if she comes home or not or at what time and how drunk she will be.

I am angry because this is not how a family should be and all because how selfish she is being. I am mad because she thinks I am not good enough for her? I hate that. I am so made that she is out right now looking for another man and she invites me to a fire works thing at her new place.

Hell no.

I have my new place I have work I need to do there.

Why do i have to love this person so much? Or as how everyone else puts it, be so attached to her. Same thing.