Ok so feeling the sad/anger build up that some have mentioned already. It is awful. I am doing so so not reacting to things. Have had a couple slips so that's a shame. Detaching and mindset of it overall is a struggle.
H called last night when on way home. I didn't answer and went for walk so not able to greet him. Before he left for party I did same thing so couldn't say bye. He ended up calling me (missed it actually) to see where I was and to say bye (not reading into that tho). I will pick and choose when answer, etc.
I have not asked any questions about his plans. still stings that going out when didn't before. Sure he is aware of how its effecting me overall.
