Been a good week of GAL'ing only saw the W once during our court appearance on Tuesday. We talked albeit briefly but cordially, also little texts back and forth mostly about S. Graduation is tonight I'm still peeved about not being there but I voiced my opinion and left it at that. Overall I feel good. The house is on the market, I have a great new apt to move into soon. My S is so much looking forward to the extra time we will have together during the summer. All in all I'm doing the best I can. Once I decided to stop worrying about all the verbal and non-verbal interactions between us it just became easier to deal with That's not to say it doesn't hurt cause it does, I still don't sleep through the night and there are those quiet times when the lonliness overwhelms you but I make it a point not to let it fester long. I have no idea what the W is thinking about how her life is going right now, if she regrets anything or is thinking about R and you know what, I'm ok with that. If some day she does broach the subject I'll deal with it then if not I know now I will be fine in the long run. I've lost 40 lbs now and am back to what I weighed in High School, it hasn't gone unnoticed by the opposite sex as I have been flirted with/hit on a few times this past week but I'm not ready for that yet, still it was nice. It's funny how random and unpredictable life can be it's also quite amazing at what you can make of life when you focus on the right things and what you and only you can control.
