Have to keep making the changes

[ATPeace]

Old thread
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2678748&page=10

I keep trying to do the work that is needed but I do not know what I have to do

Work on me yup doing this
Spend more time with the kids ...yup doing this
Be the best dad you can be ....trying to do this

Yet I still spend much too much time thinking about W and what I can do to try and please her my life is consumed with thoughts of what I did wrong I am blaming myself for the breakdown I am taking full responsabloty but it is not only my fault

I have to stop following her on Facebook yet this feels wrong to do this I have been with her for about 25 years in total and I keep feeling that this should be fixable

I cannot do the work because of the fear of loosing her yet I have already lost her

I question everything and over analyse everything and I cannot let go ...I need to be able to let go

I spiral all the flipping time

I am worth more than this I deserve to be happy

Sorry for much of the same I miss the intimacy I get nothing

I need to go hug a tree

Ghost x