What Should I be doing 3

[Coconut]

Is it worth it... Grrr, I have so much anger and hate today, sitting here wondering is it really worth it... She has an affair, acts like it's not a big deal, does nothing to help repair my trust... Do I even want to... I swear, all I want to do right now is go online and fill out non-contested divorce paperwork and split everything in half....

It's so crazy how fast I go from sadness/dis pare to indifference to now hatred... I don't even want to see her or talk to her...

I also find myself often thinking of post D, chatting with Woman a lot more (nothing inappropriate) but finding that I wouldn't mind leaving her and start something new... Is it really worth being with someone who's done this? Always having that in the back of my mind, I just don't know... I've been cheated on before back when dating, but I left them and haven't thought about it in many years until this, but it brings me no pain since I'm not with them, does it bring pain when your still with them? I would imagine many years from now it still will... Grrr