I don't think that I'll ever want To touch my WW again to be honest. This is too emotional for me to even think about sex. I've not not had sex in more than 14 years. I need to know how this feels. I really want to try for 6 months. Screw piecing. I'm NOT doing it for me.
I have an excel sheet for my goals on a daily basis. sometimes I hit 15 out of 19, sometimes as low as 9, which was her bday. But I learn everyday.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
One more thing. I am seriously repulsed by my WW. I won't share a cup with her. Maybe it's a defence mechanism. Not sure, but it helps me to physically detach.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
@dream, my son and mother are going and tickets were bought in Dec already. So either mother and I don't go and throw away thousands or WW makes a choice if she wants to go. It is her life and she decided to. Some doubt from her today tho.
I already told her that we are not a couple and I will not play happy family with her. She said she'd spend time with our son.
@Vapo, how else can you show disrespect for your MIL... But she never went, I asked her if she could stay in respect of my mother and she sort of cancelled the plans, tho I think OM2 was not available. She's now drinking a bottle of wine alone in the room.
@doodler. It's been 11 years of drinking, I have no idea what a wknd away without alcohol or sex is like. But I've got to experience things in a new light.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
So WW had to run again last night. Left after 10 and came back after 12. We're almost on the plane and she even drank as she awoke after 4am.
I'd be ashamed for her, but at least I know this is the last vacation with her for a long time, if ever again. I'm looking forward to relaxing. I need a break.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
Just had the most traumatic experience ever! We get to the passport counter and they need my sons birth certificate. That is at home in another province and the plane leaves in 20 minutes. Officer says not a chance we're going. WW says she'll stay with son in other city for holiday period. I get extremely emotional. I still am as I type this.
This means I'm going with my mother only and half of the money is thrown away.i cannot see myself going without her and my son. This was a dream holiday turning into a nightmare. I wanted to use this wknd to detach but to spend with my son too. If she had just stayed I don't know if I would have been that upset. Perhaps. They eventually let us all aboard. All in tears including my mother.
Still have a long way to go before I can control my emotions, for now I will continue to focus on my actions.
Oh, and I made the final interview for the job, for Thurs. This is destiny.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
So theres no TV here, no free WiFi. Actually fantastic. Just have an hour WiFi a day so I can focus on my family, besides the WW.
Feeling better about this afternoons plane incident. Was just over emotional.
Oh and WW put on her wedding rings again. I asked her why, she said she missed it. I said like you missed me last night when you ran to spend time with OM2? Don't judge, she can't really run here now can she...?
I'm feeling good. I know what I need to do to distance myself as much as possible. I feel confident that I can do this. Plus the upcoming interview is keeping me smiling and loving life.
Will update when my hour hits again tomorrow. I really needed this break.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
