You can't get past it now, not yet. You don't even have to forgive. Thats for her to ask God for.

But you can't let this eat you up, and consume you. Otherwise you're not going to come out stronger. You don't need material things to be happy. You really don't. Keep what little sanity you have left and start from scratch. One day at a time, build your confidence with something that you're good at, your God given talent.

Share the love that your WW has thrown away with the people that do care about you, even strangers. They will appreciate you for you.

I'm out of ideas. Big hugs.

Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.