Job explained I needed a new thread. The one I was using before was from the previous time I was DB'ing. I agree this time the situation is different.
we now know that my H is an alcohoic and has relapsed. H will be turning 40 this year and it seems as if he is going thru a MLC. H's OW is a 25yr single mother of a 5 yr old.
That is one thing we were happy about, our D's are both old enough to manage on their own. We can do things and go have fun the 2 of us. Well he is out having fun alright, just not with me.
I am trying really hard to just be his friend. extremely hard. I am going to Al-anon meetings and they talk about the same, be happy yourself, take care of you and family and DETACH.
I woke up on my knees this morning and was asking for guidance, strength and the right words to get thru today. I will go to bed on my knees as well, being grateful and thankful for all the joys in my life.
Im in a better place today then the past couple of days. C's have helped me and getting things off of my chest.
got news from a mutual friend of my H and I. she is a recovering addict as well. She stated that H reached out to her about having had better days and needs someone to talk to . Yay for H for wanting to start working on things. But, will H follow thru? all I can do is ask God for guidance for him and help him follow the correct path!
wife of an addict M 39 H 39 D18 D 16 Together 19 M17
