Hi Anjo. The feelings you are having today are reactive XH has not lived up to expectations again and that's caused you to be disappointed I completely understand and often feel ike that but you have to realise that XH is lost. I'm not trying to gives him excuses but try looking at it this way , XH had a family , a good job , a nice house , good wife and now he has nothing. He's depressed , his kids aren't really in his life and he's living in someone else's house and has no money.
Did he really choose his new life ? Who would choose that life ? Certainly no right think person would
Again , no excuses for him but maybe reasons , he wanted something different and he had an A , he went down a cheeseless tunnel and is now stuck there
Maybe he will stay in the tunnel forever and maybe he will emerge , either way Pink needs to move on with her own life and don't expect XH to act like a normal , clear thinking person because he's not right now
You truly don't deserve this pain and hardship BUT your Pink and you can deal with it. Life will be good for you again and with or without XH Pink will be great
Keep posting because we all care and want to support you as best we can
