WII, usually the only bandwagon I am on is the ice cream truck! But I am a chocolate gal:)
Saw my IC yesterday and told her everything. She said I seem so much lighter and at peace. She was worried prior to this that if I didn't do this, I would be too distracted to enjoy my vacation, and she is right, I would have been. We spoke of his daughter, which has been paining me. I had bought her a birthday card with a little gift, but didn't send it, because I figured if she forgot about me, all the better. I didn't want to overstep boundaries either. When I told IC how said it made me that she doesn't stop talking and asking about me I figured she might feel abandoned and forgotten. I never did get to say good bye. She did suggest I ask him if I can send a little card letting her know I think of her and care about her. So I asked last night and he said he thinks she would really like that. So, I'm, going to do it. It's tough, all four of us miss one another.
I'm just sort of sad, but no longer burdened or angry. We discussed him and she said she can understand why I still care. I have a soft spot for good hearts that want to open but struggle. Maybe because that was me. But there is only so much I can do.
Anyways, enough about that part of my life. Time to even stop talking about it now. Less head space, the better.
three more sleeps and I'll be leaving on a jet plane. Me and my bestie were talking last night and we both agree there is no one we would rather take this vacation with than eachother. I am lucky to have a friend like that. Even thought she signed me up to chaperone the 8th grade formal with her. I will have to learn to forgive her for that one.
