Thanks Sotto. It is an idea although I'd have to wait until S is away. Busy with GAL at the moment yet that seems to have the effect of making me think about and miss W more. Isn't that weird? Had a great night at a concert with friends but at the same time it reminded me of the time we went together in another life. Today S and I are traveling to see a basketball match, looking forward to it. I had to send a paper by email to W today. First contact in a while( although I see her chatty texts to wider family) as she asked about the game. I suppose after 7 months it is normal that we contact less and less, we adjust to our new lives, she realizes that I'm no longer her best friend etc. I feel like I'm not making much progress in all of this. I know I can't do anything to change her, I know nothing about her new life nor do I want to. I avoid chances to meet and I'm trying to occupy my time with work, activities and S. It is when I look forward, I don't see things changing. We haven't talked about formalizing the separation, we just have verbal agreements based on trust and love for S. As I have said in previous posts W is using finances to try force me into helping her relationship with S and to see me to make sure I'm still there. As it isn't urgent I'm ignoring the issue for the moment as I know she wont want me to bring it up with her family or S (not that I intend to blackmail or threaten) and I can't repair their R. Just venting as I feel sad and frustrated by the whole situation.
