14 days of sheer hell, part 6, i think

[DDJ]

Over the last 7 weeks i would read some of the posts about the WWs that go down the road to cheat or move out instantly. I would pray that that would not happen to me. It has not happened to me, but it is happening.

I guess the past 7 weeks have helped me to understand the principles of GAL, validate and 180, for myself - so that I can use it now. I'm starting to get the boundaries thing and I think i stood nice and strong last night regarding the budget and MBR, and alcohol.

I need to be consistent, not to save my M, but to save myself. I know that but I also know that that's the hardest part. I will drift many times on the road to emancipation but at least I know where i'm going.

I know that these emotions are due to the transition from her EA, to one or could be many PAs. She's put off her plans to go for "lunch" today so we're both at home, as I am not in shape to go to work, not at all. Going to doc and asking for some light sleeping tabs. I fall asleep great, its waking at 4am that's the problem.

May God help us find our strength, during our time of despair. Amen