More detachment, less anxiety and the continued joy of limbo

[Phoebe]

Hey there, SadHub! I haven't had a chance to try the chocolate meditation yet (still need to buy some), BUT I did buy a pint of Ben and Jerry's and demolished half of that, instead!!! not sure I did it mindfully, though.

So my appointment with my therapist was OK, well, good, I guess. I talked about the MeetUp experience from Monday, and then I just managed to finish going through my loss history graph. I still have yet to be able to get as far as talking about the more general trends or themes that I had noticed - the bigger picture stuff. I had really hoped to start working on that today, but I guess that's something for next week! I wish the appointments were longer.

After the therapist I had an awesome hike. The trails in the nearby state park are really making me happy. I love all the ups and downs and rocks and roots! In fact, as I was walking today, I was thinking that it was a terrific place to train for long backpacking trips. I wish I'd found it sooner. Anyway, I can actually work up a significant sweat on the trail, which is hard to do in this area. I carry a little hydration-type backpack, and my shirt was soaked through underneath it after an hour. Who needs a gym, eh?

The Audubon meeting was tiny and really good. I got to ask specific questions about my property as it pertains to preservation of one specific species. I got hints on how to site a house, how to encourage nesting on the other fields, and how to adjust the haying schedules to best ensure nesting success. It was great!!!

And then, (this is for Sotto who gave me a challenge last week) after the meting I talked to one of the attendees for another 30 minutes! Sotto had encouraged me to linger and talk to someone. Well, it didn't work last week, but it went well this time around, though he actially came up and started talking to me, so I don't deserve much credit. He grew up in the area I live in now, and was curious about the place. It was good to talk to someone with similar interests and concerns. Too bad he wasn't 30 years younger! He was a cool guy - a maritime ship captain, actually.

So, that's a wrap. I have Benadryl onboard and I am yawning, so I'd best take advantAge of it!

Merry May 18th, y'all! 'Night 'night.