My first post - please be nice.

[collin]

Thanks Pink,
The past couple days have probably been the most positive I've been in this whole fiasco. For the longest time I just felt lost and alone. Now, thanks to this forum, I feel motivated and I feel like I do have a group of people supporting me. That is such a good feeling to have. I mean, I don't want my W to move out, but she is. Nothing I can do about it, next Tuesday she's gone. But, what I can do is work on me and like everyone on here says (and now seems all so clear) make me be the be me I can be. Be the kind of person she will want to be married to. Not for though, but for me, because it's what I want to be.

We have set a 2 hour MC session on June 7 between 6-8pm. I know it's a long ways off, but with our work schedules it's the soonest we could do. So, I'm considering that another positive thing and something I am grateful for. If you remember, please during that time say a quick prayer/thought for us and hope things go well.

Thanks again everyone for all the help and support. Inevitably down the road I'm going to crash. Like next tuesday when I go home and she won't be coming home from work. But thanks to all the people on here for your advice, motivation and encouragement, I know that all is not lost and I'll make it. One way or another, I'll make it.