I totally get it. I guess I shouldn't say that me not doing chores was one of the reasons. Everything adds up. I was addicted to pain meds, and was on auto-pilot in the worst way. No excersise. Never wanted to go out. Sex drive was very low. Never did anything for my wife other than if I was asked. And if not, I was keeping myself busy with various hobbies (video games/digital art/odd jobs). Looking back, I wouldn't want to be with me.
But all that has changed now for me. I went thru a BD/separation AND drug widrawl at the exact same time. I had to tackle two things I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy at once. That REALLY helps put life in perspective and focus on whats important. What's really important. It was then that I realized how much I really did care for my W and what we have. But damage had been done. I cannot change how I was. No, its not all my fault, she has a bevy of things to work on too.
I've pulled a sharp 180 in the last few months, not because I wanted to, but because its me. I wasn't myself before. I'm back, and I know she sees it, but patience is all I can contribute right now in regards to my MR. Personally, I'm on full blast, like I used to be.
