ive been watching it all unfold from a distance over the last several weeks. and i still need to see a lot of work out of her. and im not going to rush to get back to her. or even begin that process.
i'm just seeing it for what it is. a step. could be good or bad. and she can still choose to sit here on this step indefinitely.
i gotta keep doing me and watching from a distance from now. letting her do what shes gotta do. i kinda remember being here myself about 8 months ago. i forgave her (this was during our first attempt to reconcile during our first separation) i attempted to make everything right. but it was all one sided, she just wasn't into it. perhaps now, this time around......idk we'll see.
